bullshit

i lost a good 3 lbs. went to weight myself and they were back. pissed me off. too pissed to write about it.

A new Month begins.. week 5

SO..... if I keep at my current speed i will meet my goal before summer or around my b-day. Not a bad gift if I do say so myself. I wont get ahead of myself though. I was surprised when i got on the scale today. For the last week the scale has not been a friend. It has been anything but that. I was up a good 5 lbs in the middle of the week. I just said F*UCK IT, and ate whatever for the rest of the week. I really get pissed about this stuff easy. Got on the scale and it was all gone +1. Not to shabby.
I (not him) finally went out and got the DVDs to record the p90x. only took a whole month. He recorded them all, only one set and we will do them as needed. It will be more a p180 for me. I don't have time to do it once a day. I am still going to the gym in the am and trying to do a double play on Fridays. I refuse to go on Saturdays, and I'm thinking about skipping Mondays too. Really thinking of skipping it since i have the disk. Its pointless if I'm not going to work after. waste of gas and it will piss me off. however if i need to go up north then i will make it my business to go.
hm mm... OH!!! yeah finally found this machine that he was using and talking about. Not sure if i brought this up or not. But its a sweet ass machine. I now know why he is such a gross mess after using it. I'm up to 20 Min's of use( i was dying on 10 the first time last week) and on a good incline. I am trying to make up to his level and just work the hell out of myself. I am doing a pretty good job.
I like being a sweaty mess cuz i know I'm working. I need to get a weight plan going. Weight plan as in using the weight machines. I need to also get some yoga going to tighten up this loose skin that will form. I hate being a fat bastard but this is really helping. I will be somewhat cute this summer. I have to be to keep my sanity.

Starting weight a happy 270(10 down-50 to go)

is this week 4???

I don't even know what week it is. I just know that Feb 11Th or somewhere around there will make it a month. At the moment i don't feel so bad about things. I have quickly come to accept that jiggles. I don't like them, not at all, and know that they need to leave.
So that makes me happy. I know there is PLENTY that i need to work on and i don't mind working on those thing.
I kinda like going to the gym. I go at 6am. i have to be at work at 8am. I only work out for a hour and I'm going to try to add more time on the weekend. STILL have not put that p90x on disk but we are working on it. Still eating my meals and still taking the ALLI. (that Alli will make u pay for your unhealthy eating decisions). so all in all we are good. No longer pissed or having a pity party for myself. No one wanted to come to it anyways.

Starting weight 271lbs. 9lbs total for the month. It was 10 on Sunday but i ate too much ... that's my excuse and I'm sticking to it.